I had so much hope but I guess I didn’t know America as I thought I did. I am sad, heartbroken, disappointed, worried, and in tears. If I could afford to live in the Philippines for the next four years I would, but it’s not any better there either politically. The truth is, we will get through this because we are Americans and that’s what we do. WE are strong and resilient. Nonetheless, today’s election is baffling to me. I couldn’t imagine any immigrant, woman, African-American, Muslim, man with any brains, or ANY American to vote the other way. But life is unpredictable and today is a true testament to how arbitrary life can be. Tonight, we made history for sure…history I will not be proud to tell my six-year old son tomorrow morning. Before he went to bed he said, “I hope Hillary wins.” He heard at school that Trump doesn’t want anyone in the USA who is from another country. He was worried about me. He knows I was born in the Philippines. I had to put his mind at ease and explained that I am an American citizen and that I am not going anywhere no matter who becomes president. Can you believe that children are worried about this Presidential Election, too?

I have many fears. What are we going to do when he appoints the next Supreme Court Justice and they turn over Roe v Wade and marriage equality? What will we do when Obamacare is no more…my sister has a 23 year old son who is on her insurance and a couple of my friends who have pre-existing condition? Should we care that the next leader of our country is sexist, racist, and unqualified for the job?

I don’t have anymore to say…I wish it were a joke or a nightmare that goes away when I wake up tomorrow. But I am afraid this is our future. Good night,  America and good luck to us all.